I’m busier than ever but sometimes feel like…I’m NOT DOING ENOUGH. I see these opportunities to volunteer, organize fundraisers, and help out and stop only worrying about what is that I'm doing..but then I just don't realize where it would all fit in..
Today I literally almost fell asleep at the wheel…multiple times. It was scary that I couldn’t snap out of it! & sad that after a 3 day/4 day weekend, however you see it, I was so tired. (I was NO form of productive on Monday, Labor Day so I’m not sure why I was so tired. So that, for me, in of itself was just sad haha after being up for only 3 ½ hours I was internally crying for my bed.)
I wanted to make sure that I spent no time idle now that I’m home from school. As much as I’d love another “summer” at home with no obligations other than stay fit and do whatever I had intended that day, I wanted to make sure that I could take advantage of this year off.
I am: Graduated (still have NOT received my diploma!)
But: Am not employed full-time (by choice/my lack of being able to find opportunities I deem fitting…).
With that being said, I am employed part-time in two different positions, have earned two different internships with non-profit organizations, am starting up my photography business, and for the past 3 weeks have begun my 6-7 week study plan for the GRE. My scrapbook project to document my experience in Spain and abroad this year 2012 has been put unfortunately, completely on hold.
Today I woke up feeling like I have taken on waaaay too much, and in addition to that had feelings that I literally could not manage it as I once had strongly believed/that I would fail. I left for my 6:15 AM CrossFit class dowwwwn on my spirits –It wasn’t until before my second work shift this afternoon that I received a little text message that helped me reevaluate not only my negative thoughts from this morning but also my relationship with GOD. I didn’t ask for less, although I thought about it! This morning I literally thought to myself, well maybe I should just contact her and tell her that I overstretched myself and can’t take on this at this time... BUT the text message said that I’ll really only be needed for certain days and don’t have the full responsibility of what we had agreed on (yet). It felt like a weight was lifted off of my shoulders, allowing me, and demanding of me to finally get fully organized and comfortable to make BIG things happen. As I study for the GRE, I cannot let my 12 hours a week plan falter, and can no longer avoid the grad school and program process. I need to stay on top of things like I was BEFORE I decided to take on a million new things and get involved.
This is what my weeks look like these days…
Mondays, Wednesdays, Fridays
5:40 AM Alarm
6:15 AM 1.5 mi bike ride to CrossFit class
8:15 AM Leave for Work at PHC
8:30-11/11:15 PHC
Lunch
12-2 PM Study for the GRE
Prepare Meal #3
2:15 Leave for Work at PHC
2:30-6 PM PHC
Mid-October begins: YMCA Volleyball Team Practice 7-9pm
Tuesdays, Thursdays
5:40 AM Alarm
6:15 AM 1.5 mi bike ride to CrossFit class
8:15 AM Leave for Internship with Changing Children’s Worlds Foundation, Geneva, IL
9-11:30/12 PM Internship! – Lunch brought to the office
12/1-Home to study for the GRE until 2
Prepare Meal #3
2:15 Leave for Work at PHC
2:30-6/7/745 PM PHC
Evening – additional cardio/running
Some Thursdays I sleep in and save workouts for just later!
Saturdays = Crossfit mornings + additional cardio/running
*To be added in soon: Private lessons for the YMCA, Reffing on Sunday at the Y and/or Coaching my team at tournaments
*My commute to the local PHC office can range from 10-15 minutes, so I lucked out there! But the commute to Geneva can range anywhere from 35-50 minutes depending on the time of day and traffic:/
*The 6-7 week study plan for the GRE leaves me taking the exam in late September, which will free up my afternoons...to nap (unlikely) or be productive in other ways. The #1 that I've already discussed would be extending my time spent in the internship office on Tu and Th afternoons, if I'm being honest.
Today I literally almost fell asleep at the wheel…multiple times. It was scary that I couldn’t snap out of it! & sad that after a 3 day/4 day weekend, however you see it, I was so tired. (I was NO form of productive on Monday, Labor Day so I’m not sure why I was so tired. So that, for me, in of itself was just sad haha after being up for only 3 ½ hours I was internally crying for my bed.)
I wanted to make sure that I spent no time idle now that I’m home from school. As much as I’d love another “summer” at home with no obligations other than stay fit and do whatever I had intended that day, I wanted to make sure that I could take advantage of this year off.
I am: Graduated (still have NOT received my diploma!)
But: Am not employed full-time (by choice/my lack of being able to find opportunities I deem fitting…).
With that being said, I am employed part-time in two different positions, have earned two different internships with non-profit organizations, am starting up my photography business, and for the past 3 weeks have begun my 6-7 week study plan for the GRE. My scrapbook project to document my experience in Spain and abroad this year 2012 has been put unfortunately, completely on hold.
Today I woke up feeling like I have taken on waaaay too much, and in addition to that had feelings that I literally could not manage it as I once had strongly believed/that I would fail. I left for my 6:15 AM CrossFit class dowwwwn on my spirits –It wasn’t until before my second work shift this afternoon that I received a little text message that helped me reevaluate not only my negative thoughts from this morning but also my relationship with GOD. I didn’t ask for less, although I thought about it! This morning I literally thought to myself, well maybe I should just contact her and tell her that I overstretched myself and can’t take on this at this time... BUT the text message said that I’ll really only be needed for certain days and don’t have the full responsibility of what we had agreed on (yet). It felt like a weight was lifted off of my shoulders, allowing me, and demanding of me to finally get fully organized and comfortable to make BIG things happen. As I study for the GRE, I cannot let my 12 hours a week plan falter, and can no longer avoid the grad school and program process. I need to stay on top of things like I was BEFORE I decided to take on a million new things and get involved.
This is what my weeks look like these days…
Mondays, Wednesdays, Fridays
5:40 AM Alarm
6:15 AM 1.5 mi bike ride to CrossFit class
8:15 AM Leave for Work at PHC
8:30-11/11:15 PHC
Lunch
12-2 PM Study for the GRE
Prepare Meal #3
2:15 Leave for Work at PHC
2:30-6 PM PHC
Mid-October begins: YMCA Volleyball Team Practice 7-9pm
Tuesdays, Thursdays
5:40 AM Alarm
6:15 AM 1.5 mi bike ride to CrossFit class
8:15 AM Leave for Internship with Changing Children’s Worlds Foundation, Geneva, IL
9-11:30/12 PM Internship! – Lunch brought to the office
12/1-Home to study for the GRE until 2
Prepare Meal #3
2:15 Leave for Work at PHC
2:30-6/7/745 PM PHC
Evening – additional cardio/running
Some Thursdays I sleep in and save workouts for just later!
Saturdays = Crossfit mornings + additional cardio/running
*To be added in soon: Private lessons for the YMCA, Reffing on Sunday at the Y and/or Coaching my team at tournaments
*My commute to the local PHC office can range from 10-15 minutes, so I lucked out there! But the commute to Geneva can range anywhere from 35-50 minutes depending on the time of day and traffic:/
*The 6-7 week study plan for the GRE leaves me taking the exam in late September, which will free up my afternoons...to nap (unlikely) or be productive in other ways. The #1 that I've already discussed would be extending my time spent in the internship office on Tu and Th afternoons, if I'm being honest.
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